Having A Feeling..

Lately I have had a feeling that maybe there was a miracle happening. Felt very sick lately, easily sick with certain foods, extra hungry, extra emotional, etc. A lot of people around me seem to think I'm pregnant despite doctors saying it's not possible. (Not to mention the weight gain in my stomach)  So at the advice of my doctor, I took my monthly pregnancy test.  It was of course negative. I have been feeling so hopeless lately about this, I feel like it's never going to happen. I continually pay for it to be, for us to become parents, and for me to get to experience pregnancy. Please Lord, let me be pregnant. Sleepless nights, depression, severe anxiety, being on an emotional rollercoaster.. I'm ready to just feel complete and happy. (Regarding children)  I want to look down at a big belly that is due to being pregnant, not just gaining weight. I will continue to pray for this miracle, as I know many others are for us as well. 

Until next time,
Nicole 

Military Lifestyle Sometimes Equals Loneliness

Being married to the military lifestyle is something I chose. I spend months and months away from my husbands and years at a time going without seeing my family. WARNING This post is a bit of a rant/vent. This is the first time in our entire marriage that my husband and I have been in the same country for our Anniversary. Our 3 year anniversary is in 2 days, and where do you think my husband is...? In the field. Perfect timing for the Army to take his whole company away for a week. Looks like another lonely anniversary spent alone. YAY me!

Rant over.

Until next time,
Nicole

Some Dreams Do Come True..

This post is probably not what you were thinking. I have always loved decorating and being creative. So after some deep thought and processing, I have decided to open my own business and return to school for interior design. I cannot even begin to explain to you my excitement. I officially started working on my business in January. I have started the process of getting a branding package and making some small home decor. So far so good. I hope that this becomes all I have ever dreamed it would be. My goal is to run this business successfully from home, so that I can be there as we grow our family. I want to be able to do this while also being present in my families lives. I never would've thought that I would become that woman who wants to be a stay at home mom, I have always loved working, so I figure why not have the best of both worlds, work from home and be with my children. That is.. when we have them. Soon we will be making the move to Watertown, NY area. I cannot wait. There is a fertility clinic that does discounted fees for military families. We hope to achieve pregnancy through embryo adoption. Cross your fingers for us, pray, and send good vibes our way. I am hopeful for our future. 

Until next time,
Nicole